Just fuck everything,everyone, and everywhere.....I fucking hate this computer!

I hate

I hate this one person who I have stood by for years and years and years and he still is an asshole to me. I apparently cannot do anything right, and am fugly, and crazy and a bunch of other things that I apparently did not know about myself. I don't know how to feel so I guess blogging is the only way to get how I feel out without starting a bunch of stupid pointless drama. I just want to be friends with him but I just don't know anymore the way he treats people is just so double standards, the way he treats his gf is just rediculous and then he gets mad when she tries to say that he is pushing her away.....which he is. This stupid bitch that he goes to school with just keeps calling and calling and apparently does not get the idea that he has a girlfriend so she keeps pushing herself on her. Which is making her look like a desperate slut who has never had a boyfriend and I can see why she never has, I mean one look at her and I want to ask her parents why didn't they use a condom when they were having sex? She is ugly in every sense of the word that you can think of. I know this may seem like I am just saying this because I have a "crush" on this friend but the truth is that I do not ever since he and I got into a fight and he said some extremely hurtful things, which for some reason even though he mom told me I need to forgive him, I just can't no matter how hard I try. The cut is just too deep and it will take a long time to heal everything that he has done to me in the past like nine years of our bull shit friendship. If that bitch wants to know what it feels like to have him.....try having a fucking miscariage then the person who got you preggo just says well that sucks and have fun with that. I think I never got angry or upset when that happened to me that it is just all coming out in one swoop. Well I guess that is it, I got all my anger out for now but who know's what will happen in the next few hours or even seconds.

Update

So it has been awhile since I have updated this blog thingy, so I thought why the heck not. Since I have been on here I have gotten kicked out of like three houses including my friends house which she said I could stay there as long as I like but you know what stuff happens and the best thing to do is just get over it and move on. I have started living with my other friends family and need to look for a job very soon or win the lottery either one is fine with me. It has been a hard few months since moving out of my parent's house and onto the street which is very scary and hard to not know where you will be sleeping or what you will be eating that night. Well I guess that is all for now. Peace out!